Hey everyone making their way over here through the ICLW! Take some time to wander around and learn more about us on the "our journey" page at the top.
We're not actively doing anything towards bringing our children into our lives. We saw a reproductive endocrinologist in July who said I had superb ovaries and seemed equally as puzzled about why r + m isn't equaling a baby. We agreed the endometriosis has to be a factor and he suggested we do a few IUIs before moving onto IVF. After my laproscopy costing us over $7k that we'll be paying on for a while and a couple other random huge expenses we've had lately, it's not looking like we'll be at a point to afford any of that any time soon. I graduated nursing school in May, took my NCLEX in August, and still don't have my results thanks to some stupid juvenile offense from over a decade ago. There's really no timeline on how long it will take to get all that sorted out so for now, I'm stuck waiting tables and nannying, randomly taking on birth doula clients as possible and praying that it leaves us in the black at the end of the month. Since we can't document that we have $200 left over at the end of the month (and some months we don't), we can't pursue the foster/adopt route at the moment either. Sort of feels like most of our life is just put on hold for the foreseeable future. We've been filling our time with too much TV and not enough talking so that's why we've added in our weekly lunch hike which I'm hoping will help us feel more connected.
I taught a focus session at the state nursing students convention a few weeks ago on nurses and doulas. I planned for maybe 15 people to show up since it was an early slot that conflicted with some other really great sessions. You can imagine my shock when the entire room filled up with eager nursing students (and even a faculty member or two), ready to hear me speak. I had such a great time doing it and felt so at ease, so at home in front of my "class" that I have really be doing a lot of serious thinking about the educational path I plan to take. My goal since before getting accepted into nursing school, has always been to become a nurse midwife and while that is still something I'm incredibly interested in, I feel like I have the possibility to make so much more change as a teacher. Being able to reach the minds of so many nursing students so close to when they go into practice seems like an amazing opportunity to get more nurses focused on giving evidenced based care and not just going along with protocol. We'll see where it all takes me, and I may just end up with a DNP or DMP anyway. I'll be in school forever. Matt is getting used to the idea. Especially if I'm willing to get a decent paying job and let him be a stay at home dad.
And on that note, I asked that crazy man how many kids would be his maximum number and his answer left me shocked! He said "well, do I get to be a stay at home dad?" and when I said yes, he said "seven." SEVEN! Seriously, seven kids?!?! I figured he'd lowball it and I'd work up to four. He is going to be such a great dad and hopefully we can figure out a way to make that happen very soon!