I've been able to enjoy some shopping time with friends and I'm loving my purchases. I think I'm going to end up being one of those people who owns a pair of Toms in every color because they're just so comfy and my feet don't stink in them. Retail therapy might be the best kind! And when you're doing it with awesome people, it makes it that much better. Tonight, Matt and I are going to go to the local Borders that is going out of business to get in a little more retail therapy after going out to eat dinner together.
I've connected to the hubby all over again (read: sex that has nothing to do with wanting a baby!) Yeah, so what if this is that lovely fertile time of the month, it's not like we'll end up pregnant anyway. It has totally reminded me how awesome our relationship was pre-marriage (I'm telling on myself here), since the month we got married, we started trying to conceive and sex kinda lost it's hotness after about 6 months where I started using the excuse of "we're married and married people just have less sex." Both of us struggled with depression during those first few years (and we still have our dark days) which I'm sure had a lot to do with it too. But yeah, it's been a good week which might have a little something to do with a few of the things I put in my Valentine's gift to the hubby that he's drawn since then, as well as figuring out I can get a back massage any time I want. It's all about compromise (and really great conversations!) We also went out last weekend to the dog park and to Monte Ne which was really neat. I took the picture of him right as he let his smile go, that's why he looks so mean haha. It has so much graffiti inside there!
This month was going to be an off month but now we've just decided to keep my insurance (paying for 2 separate plans until the new policy kicks in) so that I can go ahead and get our first few visits out of the way. Even after 3+ years of this, it still just seems silly to take any time off, no matter how small the likelihood of pregnancy might be. I still can't believe that a week from today, we may have some sort of preliminary plan (and to be honest, I'm getting more and more nervous about it with every passing day.) I am really coming to realize how much my anxiety has had to do with me putting this off. We kept saying it was lack of insurance, lack of that extra couple thousand dollars, etc... and in part, both of those are a little true, but really I was just scared. It's one thing to be going this alone and have my personal lack of faith, but it's going to be an entirely different feeling if that lack of faith is validated by a doctor. I know this is a necessary step but it's all I can do not to call and cancel (which is what I did last time I had an appt finally set up.)
I also had a great short hike with my puppies Wednesday night. We went out to my favorite short trail and it was Boomer's first time out there. I sat out there and watched the sunset behind the mountain, walked out into the lake bed again since it's still so low, and just enjoyed that time inside my head while wearing my dogs out. I can't wait for things to start warming up so I can get out there more often.
The only thing that's missing from my amazing week is my sweet toddler.ninja who has been in LA all week. He'll be back next week (during my busy school week) but I'm sure I'll get to watch him at some point. I miss that kid when he's gone.