That's the noise I keep thinking about as we start to climb this steep incline toward medical intervention, though I'm not sure we're really ready for the roller coaster once we reach the top of this. I finally got up the courage to make an appointment with a local OB. No more natural fertility clinics for me (at least not for now). My appointment is at 8am on Friday, March 4th. I'm super nervous but have heard good things about this guy (at least from an OB perspective) so hopefully it won't be too bad. I was warned that despite his awesome professionalism, don't be surprised if you blush from how super cute he is haha.
I'm not even sure what to expect this first appointment really. I've been doing so much research on my own these past few years, that I'm torn between getting annoyed from being talked to like I know nothing (which I get a lot at 23...looking younger than that some days) and driving him crazy being a know it all. I am coming prepared with a list of questions and plan to let him know that I do have an extensive amount of knowledge about infertility already. Thanks to all the reading I've done on my own as well as being privileged enough to follow (and feel like I'm a part of) so many other amazing women's journey that I will need very little explained to me. I feel like I will have an advantage (and will possibly be taken more seriously) since I am a nursing student. We didn't get our insurance worked out yet, but I'm just so tired of waiting so we'll be using my crappy insurance for these first few appointments and will just cover the costs out of pocket. What I'm really hoping for is just a get to know each other meeting, maybe a quick exam, and some sort of plan. I'm expecting a plan to include lots of blood work, maybe an HSG or saline u/s, definitely a sperm analysis for the hubz, and who knows what else. In my head, having someone other than me tell Matt he needs to quit smoking and shows him low numbers that will definitely increase if he quits, then he'll actually try again. Like I said earlier, I'm not sure if we'll pursue any medicated cycles at this time (although I might change my mind...or we can just wait a few more months until we'd have a june/july/august due date so that I'd be out of school by the time the baby was here.) It still seems insane to finally be on a track that might eventually lead to a baby.
We have decided not to move right now so that we can stretch our money a little farther and just pay our rent for the next few months to relieve some stress. I wish I could pay my utilities ahead of time as well, but instead I'm just moving money around to our separate account and setting up automatic withdrawal so that I don't even really have to think about it. It's so nice during this time of the year when money stress seems so very far away. We are even going to treat ourselves to some new clothes this weekend (although I got a head start yesterday and bought myself some Toms which I love so much that I think I might even sleep in them.) I also bought some Spanx which I freaking love and it makes all my pants fit so much better! It's a quick fix while I keep slowwwwwwwwly losing weight. I wish tomorrow wasn't supposed to be rainy because I don't have school and I was really hoping to go on a nice long hike with my puppies. Guess I'll have to settle for Turbo Jam, cleaning, and studying.
Hope every one is enjoying this ICLW as much as I am! I've already found a few new blogs I adore (but no run for iron commenter again this month), and I'm hoping I'll at least add one follower by the end of the week. Hopefully I'll have a lot more to talk about on the ttc front very soon! And also, yay for my 100th post!